当你很在乎很在乎一件事的时候,其实是因为你很在乎很在乎那个人..

最近发生了不是很愉快的事。。过了好些日子了但我却像个孩子一样对那件事要着不放。。
真的真的不知道是生气还是伤心。。有种失恋的感觉。。怪怪的。。然后生气也不清楚到底是生谁的气。。现在好像是再生自己的气。。没有把事情处理好，失去了理智似的，到处乱发泄。。好乱，好困惑。。能相信的人到底有几个？我真的搞错了吗？但是没证据说我搞错啊。。 我都查证过了，真的如我想得一样嘛。难道有鬼吗？为什么我一直在道歉？为什么没有人向我道歉？我的行为不对，你的行为有对吗？ 为什么整件事被我扛了起来？好不公平。。 好气。。
可是都气那么久了，为什么气还不肯消？我好像放下耶。。我不想再烦任何人了但是我的气一直不肯消！！。。我在保护我自己，不想被伤害。我一直避开因为不想看到不要看到的东西和人。。 不是讨厌。。是怕。。怕我看到了会受伤。。抱歉，我没有办法向前因为我还在为自己报不平。。要我说不再理会。。不就是叫我放弃友情吗？我不会当作没事，因为事情没有解决。

改变主意中。。。


其实。。我现在也很快乐嘛，就算生活中少了一些人。。好像也还好耶。。好啦！不理了！多三个月！ 毕了业后，去台湾，去日本！去疯！去玩！

Friday kinda remind me to treat my friends better and trust the right person. It brought me closer to my parents and bro as well.. Really thx all those who consoled me on the day. Mummy said " those who are not worth being friends with,juz ignore.." .. Daddy said " Y waste ur tears on those?" .. Bro just laughed and cheer me up.. Sh stood by my side.. Alvin said " Don't cry for those who are not worth" .. Aaron and Roy consoled me.. Xiang Yun and Jokhie brought me joy and I definitely enjoyed having them with me.. Liying was there for me for hours.. Tze Wei and I talked things out and we are so much better now + she consoled me for hours too.. =)..

The rest of them..

Grace constantly reminds me she's der for me.. Carmen constantly reminds me that we are sisters.. Ck often cheer me up at work.. Weeseng,Weiquan,Tan,Qin still reminds me that I have lotsa good friends still.. Gary too.. Yuhang..Aiyo,haha,keep bullying u coz u nice to bully =p.. but u r an awesome friend.. Willson.. Rarely talked to him le but I know he still my beloved da ge =).. Sx.. STILL MY MUMMY!! Neera,Yana and all .. my 1st ever clique in NYP.. thankful to u gals.. sorry for the previous conflict.. Lee Chia.. <3 .. Uncle(Lizhi).. Tho u r at Jap,thx for always checking on me and seeing if im doing well .. Donut Jie, I'll bring LIYING go find u at taiwan aft grad!!!And the rest..Just really thanks for being my friends.. I don't know how to appreciate till that day.. I'm really glad I met u guys..

My portfolio is finally DONE and hosted!!! FEELS GREAT .. Lik finally 1 thing off my list.. Finally..

Not good enough to show the big bosses but shld be ok to show my frenz.. Share my joy ! XD..

Tzewei, if u r reading this,go take a look ok? =)..


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再坚强的人，也有breakdown的时候

My dad was asking me just now "When is ur next holiday?"
I answered " I dun hav holiday"
.. he asked again " When is ur next SCHOOL holiday?"
I repeated "I dun hav holiday"
and once again.. I think he's not believing what he's hearing " When is NYP letting u have a break?"
I said " Next year 2010 April"

"THAT's UR GRAD DAY!"

"yea,I dun hav anymore holiday till dat day.. "

Then he started asking about the school system.. And asked about FYP.. as well as attachment.. He even asked me if my school will offer me a job aft my grad..
Daddy,u very cute.. I hav to look for job myself la.. den he said " die le la u.. u cfm cannt find job one la... haiz.. attachment money u keep for urself la,i giv u allowance still.. 400 cfm not enf one.. "

I was feeling kinda .. hmm.. i oso dunno wad to say .. Coz I seems as if im lacking of independence ..My mum fetch me home after work and to work.. And purchase wadeva im promoting.. It's almost as if she's giving me my salary,not my boss.. My dad dun seems to think i can get a job outside.. And that I can never earn enf to spend.. I cant be that useless right..There must be something i can do.. After my graduation... Where can I go.. After Uni,wad can i do... I have a plan but whether or not things will go my way is another problem..


But all these thoughts were gone when my dad added a sentence " If arhx.. U still cant get a job aft grad.. Go Taiwan walk walk,play play 1st la... "



O.O

Cant stand the stress im facing.. There's practical test today and there's presentation tml and there's 3 projects to hand in and im hardly done .. Picking out a day to skip sch so i can hav a full day to myself and complete wadeva needs to be completed.. Mon,it's ytd.. passed... Tues, today.. der's practical test,i cant skip.. Wed,presentation and interview.. no way.. thurs, cant cant cant!! .. Fri.. skip for wad.. it's almost weekend... Aww.. damn sian.. I wish for holiday.. Is there any public holiday coming? Im so stressed up now..

Tze wei suggested to walk me home after meeting up.. My phobia for darkness didnt let me reject the suggestion =(.. So once again,she send me home.. It sounds so wrong u noe.. having ur fren .. a female fren to send u home.. Sorry Tzewei.. Next time dun meet till so late,we leave earlier so I can go home on my own =)..

Thanks wor tw.. 祝你幸福

Lets talk about love.. Sometimes when a romance is lacking of love therefore the person thinks there's no need to meet so often, a truly in love couple would be thinking of each other every min..

Now studies.. Studying hard brings you to somewhere but it doesn't build one's character..

Hair style .. I think curls and wave are both nice.. but depends on who's having the hair style.. Carmen's curls are beautiful and it makes her so adorable =)..

Juz a random post.. haha

Oh yah,hav u read about perverts and stalkers.. I SPOTTED ONE!!! .. And im so friggin annoyed , i cant believe there's someone so sick.The more sick dat person is,the more i wanna attack on my blog. It surprise me that a person like that exist on this planet.. oh well.. Wasting 1/3 of my blog post writing about the person is sinful.. I shall stop..

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